Monday, July 25, 2011

And so it begins...again.

This evening my cycle FINALLY ended. Day 52. I literally gasped when I uh...realized it had ended. I was THAT surprised! It's been 52 days since I last got my period, so I had no idea when to expect it. I'm glad that it "fixed" itself. It also further confirms that I'm NOT pregnant. As disappointed as I am that I am not pregnant, it is quite a relief to know that nothing too serious is wrong with my body. So what caused the delay in my period? No clue. These things do happen so I'm told. As my mom said the other day, "Bodies are weird."

So where do we go from here? Well...today is day 1. It marks the beginning of a new cycle, thus a new chance to get pregnant. Upon the end of my period, I will wait a week or so and start with the ovulation prediction kit. When we get the smiley face, we'll start the baby dance again. Then...we wait. Waiting is the most difficult aspect. It seems that I spend the last week or so of my cycle waiting to bleed. That sounds extremely sadistic, but it's true. Bleeding signifies no baby. When I don't bleed, I don't assume I'm pregnant, though. I assume I'm late. Apparently this cycle, I was super late...or early, depending how you look at it I guess. I still plan on calling the doctor and asking about why this all unfolded the way it did, especially when my ovulation prediction kit indicated I was about to ovulate around day 19. Weird.

Anyway...new cycle, new month, new opportunity to conceive. There's something pretty peaceful about the idea of newness. It's almost hopeful. It reminds me of the song I embedded below. It's one of my favorite songs right now. Their voices and harmonies are so peaceful and hopeful. The lyrics also speak sweetly to my heart. Keep praying for us and sending happy thoughts, please. :-)





"Beautiful Things" by Gungor

All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us



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  1. Beth BrakewoodJuly 25, 2011 at 7:39 PM

    Give your doc a call soon - he may not be able to tell you what happened last time if he doesn't have data (aka bloodwork) to tell him what your hormones looked like though. Either way, most docs like to have some basic information if someone really is hitting that one-year-of-trying-without-success mark and one of the easiest things you can do as far as diagnostics is cycle day 3 blood work. A quick 5 minute blood draw on the third day of your cycle (aka, the third day you are bleeding) might be able to give him a pretty significant window into how YOUR body responds to the whole baby-makin'-thang.

    During my diagnostic-phase I got really tired of waiting until my next period so that we were at the right "time" for whichever diagnostic procedure I was working on. I always felt like I was just wasting one more month. If you can get it out of the way now it puts you one more month ahead of the game and it doesn't cost you much in terms of time or money (and it doesn't interfere with using the OPK and the baby dance!)

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  2. AngelaJuly 26, 2011 at 12:24 PM

    Beth- Thanks for sharing your experiences and understanding. I will have my husband read this so he understands what you're saying and we will definitely call the doctor. It's too late for this cycle for day 3 testing, but if I go ahead and talk to the doctor, she can at least be put into the game plan for the next cycle. I totally understand that whole "wasting a month" mentality. I feel like a whole year is wasted before a doctor is even willing to help with fertility issues. I will definitely look into this ASAP. Thanks!

    xo,
    A

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