Before you read this post, you might want to check out Tuesday's post for part 1.
As I left off on Tuesday, I promised to update you on our future plans.
Currently, we're making plans to get physicals and lady/gentlemen exams done.
I have an appointment for Nov. 1 (the first one available sadly and that's only because of a cancelation) for a physical/OBGYN exam. At least a week prior to that appointment, I have to go in to get some tests ran pertaining to my thyroid, among other things. Hopefully, that will be all it takes to get some answers. Hopefully they'll be able to say that I'm relatively healthy (my weight has always been an issue, but I am currently working on that aspect) and that I have no fallopian tube blockage. I have a sneaky suspicion that I am not ovulating. I'm hoping they might be able to tell me why my cycle isn't regular, why I'm not ovulating, but still getting my period most months (if they determine I'm not ovulating) and why we're not conceiving.
If something is wrong with my insides, then we'll have to deal with that when it comes. I was telling my mom on Sunday how nervous I am about them finding something wrong with me. She basically told me that worrying about it and getting upset about it before it even happens is a waste of time and energy. We have to pray for patience, for an accepting spirit, and for a positive attitude. I'm not as nervous right now as I am hopeful. I'm hopeful we'll finally get some answers. I'm praying for no more heartache, but if we get bad news, we'll deal with it.
As for the hubs, we're looking into getting his swimmers tested as well as he getting a physical. If the "problem" lies with him, then I guess we'll have to see where our options lie. I know he's a bit worried about it being his "fault," but I'm trying to talk him out of that mindset. He has a past involving drugs. According to him, if you smoke pot with the seeds in it, you're more likely to have fertility issues later in life. I have no idea about any of that. I've never done drugs. Regardless, I still don't consider it his fault if the issue does lie with him. As I asked him last night, "If the problem doesn't lie with you, then is it MY fault?" He said, "No of course not!" I said, "Then it can't be your fault either. It isn't about fault."
"Sing, O barren one, who did not bear;
break forth into singing and cry aloud,
you who have not been in labor!
For the children of the desolate one will be more
than the children of her who is married," says the LORD.
For a brief moment I deserted you,
but with great compassion I will gather you."
--Isaiah 54:1,7--
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