Before you read this post, you might want to check out Tuesday's post for part 1.
As I left off on Tuesday, I promised to update you on our future plans.
Currently, we're making plans to get physicals and lady/gentlemen exams done.
I have an appointment for Nov. 1 (the first one available sadly and that's only because of a cancelation) for a physical/OBGYN exam. At least a week prior to that appointment, I have to go in to get some tests ran pertaining to my thyroid, among other things. Hopefully, that will be all it takes to get some answers. Hopefully they'll be able to say that I'm relatively healthy (my weight has always been an issue, but I am currently working on that aspect) and that I have no fallopian tube blockage. I have a sneaky suspicion that I am not ovulating. I'm hoping they might be able to tell me why my cycle isn't regular, why I'm not ovulating, but still getting my period most months (if they determine I'm not ovulating) and why we're not conceiving.
If something is wrong with my insides, then we'll have to deal with that when it comes. I was telling my mom on Sunday how nervous I am about them finding something wrong with me. She basically told me that worrying about it and getting upset about it before it even happens is a waste of time and energy. We have to pray for patience, for an accepting spirit, and for a positive attitude. I'm not as nervous right now as I am hopeful. I'm hopeful we'll finally get some answers. I'm praying for no more heartache, but if we get bad news, we'll deal with it.
As for the hubs, we're looking into getting his swimmers tested as well as he getting a physical. If the "problem" lies with him, then I guess we'll have to see where our options lie. I know he's a bit worried about it being his "fault," but I'm trying to talk him out of that mindset. He has a past involving drugs. According to him, if you smoke pot with the seeds in it, you're more likely to have fertility issues later in life. I have no idea about any of that. I've never done drugs. Regardless, I still don't consider it his fault if the issue does lie with him. As I asked him last night, "If the problem doesn't lie with you, then is it MY fault?" He said, "No of course not!" I said, "Then it can't be your fault either. It isn't about fault."
"Sing, O barren one, who did not bear;
break forth into singing and cry aloud,
you who have not been in labor!
For the children of the desolate one will be more
than the children of her who is married," says the LORD.
For a brief moment I deserted you,
but with great compassion I will gather you."
--Isaiah 54:1,7--
Any advice you'd like to bestow? Any personal experiences you'd like to share? Please leave all positive and encouraging words in the comments below!
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Aw baby, I am so sorry you are going through all of this. For some reason I never thought you would have trouble conceiving. Purely based on my ease of it. Sadness! My heart hurts for you and Vance both.
ReplyDeleteOn the other hand I know without a doubt it will all work out exactly as it should and when it should.
You are being proactive and involved. That is good. Now if you can control those negative, "what-if" thoughts from popping in that brain of yours you'll be set. Easier said than done I know.
So many are praying for you. That's wonderful. What a great feeling knowing such.
I pray for peace and comfort and patience and understanding and patience and more patience for both of you. Love you both! Keep on keepin' on my Angelie!
Love you infinity....and 'yond~ Mom :)
I love you infinity and 'yond, too, Mommy. :-) Thanks for being there for me (us) and for listening to my heart, even though you don't understand from personal experience. :-)
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As being there, all I can really say is breathe. It's scary, trust me. I was terrified. I seriously thought the problem was with my parts because I had always been so jacked up from birth control. (which is why I will NEVER do any form of birth control that a dr has to give me) I did not want to do any of it. It was such a pain getting blood drawn every so often. But as it turned out, everything was fine. I was ovulating, my levels were normal. Weston was more terrified. He has abnormalities with his swimmers but was told they don't affect fertility. If it turns out nothing is wrong with either of you then just realize it isn't His time yet. Keep trying. Pray for his will. We continued to try after getting tests done but not like we had been in the past. Not so strict and lay this way for this long and count down the days until I could test. It makes it a lot easier on the both of you. I promise you. I hated being there, and I hope and pray that you don't have to be there for much longer. <3
ReplyDeleteThanks, Kara. It's nice to be encouraged by someone who's "been there." I've never used birth control before, but my cycle has always been wonky. We've taken a break from "trying" as in trying to coordinate when we THINK I may ovulate....if I'm ovulating at all. I'm on day 67 of my cycle right. I don't think I've EVER gone this long without a period. It's so weird...and as you can probably tell, freaking me out a little! I'm keeping the faith and trusting God in all of this, so even though I'm freaking out a little, I still have a sense of peace knowing he's got it under control!
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I went a year without a period. =\ It sucks I know.
ReplyDeleteA year before Raven or after? Did you have a period after Raven was born before you conceived Isaiah? (Ya know...not just the blood from the postpartum recovery.) How weird is it that we're disappointed we're not bleeding?
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i have thyroid issues and have miscarried twice now. I hope they figure out what's going on with you. hang in there!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Leah! I'm hanging! I just hope I don't get sweaty hands and slip!
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